I should be happy.
My childhood best friend and I are living our wildest dreamāmaking music and touring the world as famous rock stars. Iāve got everything I could wish for.
Except him.
Iāll never have Silas. Not the way I want.
Our onstage behaviour gives fans a lot to speculate over, but itās only an act.
The truth is, I die inside every time we touch. It might be pretend for Silas, but for me, itās a constant reminder that I canāt have him the way I truly desire.
Then, a moment onstage leads me to a breaking point, and I canāt bear the heartache any longer.
I need to find a way to only see Silas as a friend before I lose our friendship, and him, forever.
My life is split into two chapters.
Before Kai and After Kai.
My childhood was a nightmare. A darkness I carried alone. But everything became brighter when I met Kai. He took me into his life, his family, his home.
Kai is more than my best friend. Heās my everything.
Some people think our relationship is oddā¦that itās unusual for two friends to be as close as we are.
But everything about us makes sense.
At least, thatās what I believed.
When an onstage moment shines a light on the cracks in our foundation, my eyes are opened to a truth thatās been right in front of me the entire time.
A truth I want to explore.
But itās too late. Just when Iām ready for more, Kaiās moving on.
One thingās for sure; Iām not giving up.
No matter the risks.





