




He hadnāt appreciated how well heād slept next to Kenzie in the past. Not until that night, when he dozed off only to wake up in a cold sweat. The third time it happened, he went to the bathroom. As he wandered back to her bed, he saw it was quarter to four in the morning.
His eyes had adjusted to the dark, he found his pants, and quietly pulled them on.
āYouāre leaving?ā Kenzie croaked.
āNot sleepinā. Means youāre probably not sleepinā. Figure itās betterāā
She turned on her bedside lamp and he squinted. He watched her reach under her pillow and pull out her satin nightie. She got out of the bed, pulled on the nightie, and turned around.
Her eyes blazed at him. āYou did not strike me as a runner.ā
āNot running. Weāre bothāā
She leaned forward. āTired! Whatever, Vaillant! I fucked up and told you how I was feeling because you told me not to bottle shit up and to always be honest with you. Is that a one-way street now?ā
āKenāā
She shook her head. āI hear the placating tone coming my way, and I call bullshit. Seriously, Sam. I gotta be honest with you always, but that courtesy doesnāt extend my way?ā
His head turned marginally. Sheād turned shit around on him, and he didnāt like it. āWhat are we fighting about?ā
āThe double standard, Brute. You donāt have to say you love me, but you donāt feel anything for me?ā she asked, throwing an arm out. She shook her head again, and stalked toward the bathroom. āI shouldnāt ask that. Besides, youāre right. Itās probably better if you go. Neither one of us is sleeping, not that Iām likely to sleep now, but have it your way. Iāll lock the front door in five minutes.ā
She closed the door to the bathroom, and he heard the lock click. The hollowness in his stomach wasnāt hollow anymore. It burned with a pain he hadnāt felt in a long damn time. He sat on her bed, put his elbows to his knees, hunched over, and held his head in his hands. She was right, heād given her a double standard.
What the hell was he supposed to do?
He wouldnāt leave her like this, that much he knew. Whether he could make it right with her, remained to be seen.
Waiting for her to come out of the bathroom felt like an eternity.
He turned his head when she opened the door and felt a gut punch. Her eyes were puffy and bloodshot. That was his fault.
With his eyes on hers, he sat up straight and held a hand out to her. She twisted her lips, but put her hand in his while she slowly made her way to him. He didnāt want her sitting next to him, so he let go of her hand and took her by the hips. She gasped, but her legs spread as he put her on his lap so they were chest-to-chest and face-to-face.
āIām sorry,ā he whispered.
Her hands wrapped around his neck. āWhat for?ā
His forefinger traced around her eye. āThis. I never want to make you cry, Zee. And, Iām sorry for giving you a double standard.ā
Her brows went up even as her chin dipped. She kept quiet.
āI have feelings for you. More damn feelings than Iāve had for a woman in a helluva a long time.ā
He heard and felt her shuddering breath. āThat goes both ways,ā she whispered.
With his forehead against hers, he asked, āYou have feelings for a woman, too?ā
Her fingers gave his neck a playful squeeze. āNo. I haveāā
āI got that when you laid the honesty on me, babe. Scares the hell out of me because I havenāt done anything to deserve that.ā























